Still...

Damn, I'm still confused...
I know what I would like to do and I know I can do it, but I don't know if I should...

I am 2...

I have just reached an obvious conclusion: I am 2...
Like 2 entities, the old and the new, the fearful and the fearless...

I think I need to take chances in my life...

Ah, thinking is so easy, can I actually do what I want?
And is what I want, what I actually need?
Do I really need it or is it a whim?
I am crazy now, or have I always been? :-P

Damn, I'm so confused...

Today...

Today I am just feeling uninspired and melancholic and, yes, a little bit blue...
Just writing here to see if I get clear minded.


I know I have to accept what the Wheel of Fate, Karma, or whatever, gave me, but still, it's hard...
It's not easy, I have to move on, but I don't want to make the wrong choices in moving on.
I think Choices are harder when you face Change, but you have to trust and believe in yourself and in what you decide to do... For better or for worse...


One day I will really get over what we had - you shouldn't ever have made those questions, those promises, you should have never spoken those words...
Still, they were made and spoken and they can never be taken back (never never never).

And I am just hurt about the way you did things in the end... :(
Thank the Goddess you were (probably still are) a complete insincere lying asshole (maybe I'm over reacting, but the name calling is so liberating!)!
Well, at least I'm not desperate anymore, I'm not crying to sleep anymore.

And I'm grateful for knowing you, all in all, you've helped me grow and I got to know more about me.
I accept the Change in me and I embrace it.

Now is time to move on and take chances...
I will not let fear prevent me from doing what I want and from feeling how I feel and from thinking what I think...
I have my will, my desire, myself, my Goddess...
I am Strength and Knowledge and Love and Will and Beauty and Inspiration...
I am Me.

The Moon

I behold you from the night sky
Feel my presence
Look up to me
Give in to me
Surrender to me

I am Knowledge
I am Power
I am Freedom
I am Truth
I am Belief
I am Love

Embrace me
For I am Happiness too.

The Charge of the Goddess

Now listen to the words of the Great Mother, who was of old also called among men Artemis, Astarte, Athene, Dione, Melusine, Aphrodite, Cerridwen, Dana, Arianrhod, Isis, Bride, and by many other names. At her altars, the youth of Lacedaemon in Sparta made due sacrifice.

Whenever ye have need of any thing, once in the month, and better it be when the moon is full, then shall ye assemble in some secret place, and adore the spirit of me, who am Queen of all witches.

There shall ye assemble, ye who are fain to learn all sorcery, yet have not won its deepest secrets; to these will I teach things that are as yet unknown.

And ye shall be free from slavery; and as a sign that ye be really free, ye shall be naked in your rites; and ye shall dance, sing, feast, make music and love, all in my praise. For mine is the ecstasy of the spirit, and mine also is joy on earth; for my law is love unto all beings.

Keep pure your highest ideal; strive ever towards it, let naught stop you or turn you aside; for mine is the secret door which opens upon the land of youth, and mine is the cup of wine of life, and the cauldron of Cerridwen, which is the Holy Grail of immortality.

I am the gracious Goddess, who gives the gift of joy unto the heart of man. Upon earth, I give the knowledge of the spirit eternal; and beyond death, I give peace, and freedom, and reunion with those who have gone before.

Nor do I demand sacrifice; for behold, I am the Mother of all living, and my love is poured out upon the earth.

Hear ye the words of the Star Goddess; she in the dust of whose feet are the hosts of heaven, whose body encircles the universe.

I who am the beauty of the green earth and the white moon upon the mysteries of the waters, I call upon your soul to arise and come unto me.

For I am the soul of nature that gives life to the universe. From me all things proceed and unto me they must return. Let My worship be in the heart that rejoices, for behold, all acts of love and pleasure are My rituals.

Let there be beauty and strength, power and compassion, honor and humility, mirth and reverence within you. And you who seek to know me, know that the seeking and yearning will avail you not, unless you know the Mystery: for if that which you seek, you find not within yourself, you will never find it without.

For behold, I have been with you from the beginning, and I am that which is attained at the end of desire.

The Goddess

Do you sense the Full Moon approaching?
See, feel, embrace her... Surrender and let all your senses be invaded by her...